What I Was Feeling While Getting Drenched in the Rain, Waiting On Daisy to Come to Tea

It was one of the scariest moments of my life. It has been five years since I saw the woman I have done everything for, risked everything for. I was ecstatic a few days ago when Nick agreed to invite Daisy to tea. I figured that everything would go okay- however I made an absolute fool of myself I believe. Nick tried comforting me by saying I need to “stop acting like a little boy”, because both me and Daisy were embarrassed and nervous. Which is true. However, let me backtrack a bit. As I sat there in the beautiful living room with the newly trimmed yard outside, I began to work up a sweat. I was incredibly nervous. I would look at Nick, the beautiful old clock on the mantle, and back at Nick. As soon as it hit four, I was ready to leave. It was as if my conscience was saying that it wasn’t worth it, that sitting there believing Daisy would show up, finally, after five years was a ridiculous idea. As soon as my thoughts began racing, I heard a car roll up in the driveway. My stomach was turning, I couldn’t do it.
I raced out Nick’s back door, into what I then found out was the pouring rain. I couldn’t possibly go back in- she wouldn’t want to see me. Why would she? But then I began to rationalize- she would want to see me. She loves me, that was all I kept repeating to myself in my mind. As I stood there, letting my hair and nice suit get completely soaked, I heard Daisy and Nick laughing with each other around the front of the house. He seemed to be leading her inside, covering her from the rain. And she was commenting on all the little things. Her voice- it had been so long since I heard her speak so happily, or even speak at all. I decided to go back in. The old sport was most likely looking for me anyhow. I went to his back door and I knocked hard- I was drenched after all. Nick finally came to the door, and I walked right past his surprised face and into the living room, where Daisy was gazing out the window. When she turned around, and we made eye contact, so many different thoughts were running through my head. She looked as beautiful as ever, and although a large portion of the evening was slightly awkward, due to acting like a “little boy”, it was amazing to finally feel the way I felt five years ago.